push.

push. its a word that could take on so many meanings. however, the meaning thats been on my heart is the pushing of people. not literal physical pushing, but emotinal and mental pushing.think of it as someone who is trying to help you, and you shoo them off, or push them away. its something ive done several times. push. its something i hate to admit ive done. its something that i would see as a dark spot in my history. one instance is the biggest standout in my mind. i pushed someone who had my best intrest and walk with christ in mind. and i pushed, or shoved rather, them away. that person tried to help. that person cared. but i, i was at a point of anger, and i saw help as accusation. that is a time that i wish i had sat and thought. i wish i had prayed. and i wish i had acted diffrently. push. at this moment, the mending of that relationship seems reletivly unsucsessful. and for that im burdened. this person, was a strong mentor in christ for me. push. it ruins things. i hope that this person reads this. and i hope they understand its about them. and i hope, that despite my push, the walk back. becase now i have a realization, or maybe revelation and i hope the see my apology as sincere, because it is. dont push. dont push. especially those who strengthen your walk with christ.